The Main Reason I Reject Calvinistic Soteriology

The common ground between Armeniansim and Calvinism is that, man has no ability apart from the grace of God. 

I imagine it this way. 

We are born in dark rooms, not knowing what light is, nor with the ability to make our own light. 

God stands outside the room. If He does not shine light into the room, we are always going to be helpless in darkness. 

I believe that each of us are in our own dark rooms and in every dark room there will come a time when a light shines in. 

We have no free will before the light, we are slaves to the dark, but once it shines in we have a choice. 

Follow it out of darkness or remain. 

Some people start to follow the light (the Holy Spirits drawing), get right to the exit and then turn back. 

It's up to God if He ever shines it again. He remains sovereign. I believe He gives all a chance, but some people who reject His light, He turns it off and leaves them in darkness. 

Horrifying. 

Remember what it says: “Today when you hear his voice, don’t harden your hearts as Israel did when they rebelled.”

Hebrews 3:15

For he says, “In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you.” I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation.

2 Corinthians 6:2 

I primarily reject Calvinistic soteriology because it makes Christ absurd. 

“O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the city that kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to it! How often would I have gathered your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings, and you were not willing!

Matthew 23:37

Does Christ not understand how salvation works? Did he forget to ask John Calvin about  the I in TULIP? 

It gets worse when you replace, "Jacob have I loved and Esau I have hated" with one of your children. 

Corporate view of election makes sense with the whole of Romans 9, 10 and 11. 

Anyway, not to ramble I think Tozer sums it up well. 

God sovereignly decreed that man should be free to exercise moral choice, and man from the beginning has fulfilled that decree by making his choice between good and evil. When he chooses to do evil, he does not thereby countervail the sovereign will of God but fulfills it, inasmuch as the eternal decree decided not which choice the man should make but that he should be free to make it. If in His absolute freedom God has willed to give man limited freedom, who is there to stay His hand or say, 'What doest thou?' Man’s will is free because God is sovereign. A God less than sovereign could not bestow moral freedom upon His creatures. He would be afraid to do so.

A.W. Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy